Things I want to do before I leave Provo...

In no particular order.



-Eat at J-Dawgs. I never have and I feel a great desire to try the special sauce!!

-Have a spring cookout! It's tradition!

-Go to the zoo.

-Go stargazing in the canyon. It's still chilly in the evenings and this is a much better summer activity but I need one last good star gazing session before I leave!

-Go to Mimi's and eat corn chowder even though I'm allergic to corn.
-Go to the Tulip Festival at Thanksgiving Point. I've always wanted to go but couldn't justify the price. I still can't, but I might just go anyway.

















Oh...and pack.

Things that make me laugh...

Sometimes I just need to laugh, don't we all? I love youtube for this reason. I have a confession, I quite enjoy the freecreditreport.com commercials. They're catchy, they get stuck in my head and they make me think of my favorite work friend, Callie, who knows all of the words to one (all?) of them. My personal favorite is the pirate singing in the fish restaurant. If you hate it and don't want it stuck in your head, don't push play, this is my warning.





This video is from SNL. Chris showed it to me and, with my love of High School Musical, I couldn't help but love it. In case you haven't seen it, High School Musical 4.



Happy Tuesday everyone! I have 3 days of work left and more days then that left in Utah. I can't count how many because I don't want to know...

Oh and I'm going to start packing...right.

Happiness!

Dear Travelocity,

Thank you for sending me an email today to inform me of $99 round trip fares from the state my sister lives in to the state that I am leaving her for.  Leaving the sister & the nephew behind doesn't seem so painful when I only have to wait 117 days to see them again.  

Sincerely,

Beth  :) :) :)

My emotions always surprise me.  When I first decided to move all I could do was cry.  I cried every time I told people for the first few days and cried every time I thought about it.  Then I went through a dry spell.  Maybe it stopped feeling real because the decision had been made but I had a long wait ahead of me before the move actually came.  

As the time for me to leave comes closer I'm still not crazy emotional, but have moments of overwhelming sadness.  Before you think to yourself "Beth is backing out", I must say that I feel such peace that my decision will not be changing.  I'm just kind of amused by the things that have brought out this emotion.  I would have expected the sad moments to come in quiet moments when I was alone and thinking too much.  Not during normal, everyday activities.  Sitting in a truck with my best friend, driving through NV in a silent, comfortable moment I felt that sadness.  Running around my friends basement being rowdy & playing a made up game with my nephew, I felt sad again.  Sitting at a Ryan Shupe concert last night listening to a VERY upbeat song I cried.  These little moments are perfect examples of why leaving Utah will be so hard.  Those moments aren't necessarily sad moments or anything spectacular, they're fairly common moments that make up my life.  It's in those moments that I realize how much Utah has become my home.  Some may be confused at the fear and sadness I feel about moving "home".  To you I may be moving home but to me I'm leaving my home.  I feel safe and happy in MD but Utah is my home and leaving will be much harder then I would have expected.

Random random thoughts...

The best.

I've always known that I have been given the BEST people in my life. My family, my friends, people that come and go quickly. Each has been for a reason and that is something I have always been aware of. Perhaps that is why I cling to friends so tightly. This morning I was able to spend time with a group of girls that have become my sisters over the last 7ish years and I was reminded of that today. For awhile there we were attempting to have a book club. It never really worked out because we all liked chatting far too much to actually discuss a book (assuming anyone read it...). To solve this problem we decided to do activities together instead. This months activity worked out quite well because Rach & Ames were both in town. It was so fun to catch up with them but mostly I just loved having everyone together. I always feel like everything is complete when so many of us are together. Breakfast was wonderful with lots of laughing and talking and those valued "girl" moments where everyone gets all fired up over one of their girl friends being hurt by a guy or a friend.

I just have to say that I'm grateful for these friends because they are mature, strong and independent women (in all of the good ways) that have taught me many things and have helped me to realize what I want to be more of. They have been a shoulder for me in difficult times, have laughed hysterically with me at nothing, have swooned with me over silly moments and have become the kind of people that I really feel I can share my heart with. I've talked about many of these girls before but I can't let this day pass without expressing it again. I left feeling sad because it is the last time, in the foreseeable future that we will all be together and sad because I just didn't want to leave because I love that feeling. And of course feeling joy because, really how could you not? Here are some pictures of the lovely ladies. And, if I do say so myself everyone is looking incredibly hot in these photos. I love you girls and I'm so grateful that I was in the right place at the right time to build such beautiful friendships with such beautiful women. You truly inspire me.

Auntie x2!!

I'm going to be an Auntie again!  My cute sister is pregnant again and I'm so excited!  Check out her latest blog for a cute video of her little monkey Austin and the cute picture she used to announce her pregnancy to the family.  Congratulations Sare & Jerr!!  I love you guys!

http://jerrandsare.blogspot.com

Days that I don't have to work are seriously becoming the best days EVER. Yesterday I came home from work and was sooo grumpy. I don't know what my problem was because nothing really happened but I was grumpy. Then today! Today was beautiful! The weather was amazing I got a lot done in my bedroom and got to just chill in my room with the window wide open shredding paper for much of the morning.

My afternoon was spent playing at the playground with Sarah, Austin & Porter. The weather was again beautiful (if not a little warm after running around in the sun) and the company was fantastic. I loved watching the boys discover all of the fun things to do. Austin looked a little overwhelmed at first because there was just soo much to do but it ended up just being fantastic. I went to Sandy and had dinner with Chris after hanging with the fam during the day and again had a great time, laughed a lot, had good conversation and left just feeling plain old happy! All of these things are the reason I decided to give up the extra $100 and not work two extra days in April. My last day will be April 17th and I'm thrilled. That gives me 12 days to hang out with my family and with all of my wonderful friends. I have less then one month of work left and I couldn't be happier about it (except the whole not having an income and leaving some friends that I love a lot.) I'm grateful for my job and have learned SO much and have met some wonderful people but I feel so strongly that the time to move on really has come.

Enjoy some pictures from a day at the park!



Austin & Auntie Beth on the slide.

The boys on the spinning thing...
Austin looking SO proud of himself on the swing. He sat like that almost the entire time.


The monkey. He was hanging all by himself for quite awhile, then he just dropped to the ground. He's strong. His shirt has a monkey on it, I wish you could see it in this picture.
Porter & Aunt Beth in the SPACESHIP!!

Ohh and what is a day at the park with out a "perprise" (Surprise) trip to get ice cream!!

Those boys were soo happy. (And so were Sare and I.)And last but not least, the funniest thing ever. Mrs. Sarah (my sistah) tells Porter to touch the car while she puts Austin in his carseat. This is to prevent him from running into the street of course. So, I'm not sure how it started, but he puts both hands on the car, as seen below. I laugh every time because it just looks like he was pulled over by a cop. Ba haha! Gets me everytime, and now I have it for forever!