Every now and then I go through a phase where I crave change. I'm in one of those phases and I just can't figure out what to do to change things up. I dyed my hair. I love it, it's different but it wasn't enough. About once a year I start to get anxious and want to move away from this sometimes stifling city. I want to move back to the east where things are fast paced, where I can see green without looking far, where I feel at home. Even when I'm just on that coast, not just Baltimore. When I went to Boston I was driving to pick Rin up from the airport and I felt at peace. I felt like I was at home. Maybe it's because I was driving on 95, maybe it's because the freeway was lined with beautiful green trees, maybe it was because I was much closer to my family then I usually am, quite possibly it was because I was going to pick up one of my best friends and I knew everything would feel just right once we started our crazy awesome vacation. But maybe it's because I belong on the east coast? I don't doubt it. I love the east and I WILL go back someday. I just don't know when. I go through this phase, I desperately want to leave and then I feel strongly that I should stay. Besides, if I left I would be way too far from my sister and my nephew and lately the only time I feel completely carefree is when I'm with them so really that would be silly.
Maybe the desire for change comes from seeing the lives of all of my friends changing and I want some for myself. I need to figure out ways to change things up in my life. I don't want to get bored. I don't want to spend all of my time dwelling on the fact that I'm alone or wishing I was somewhere else. I can't just sit around, my life is happening and I want to make the most of every moment. So how do I do that? What can I do that will give me a little change in my life and also help fill my life with something more interesting then oh, say, writing a blog. What do you do to change things up? Do you dye your hair like I do? Take a class? I'd love to hear your thoughts.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Numerology eh?
After church today my roommate was a bit bored so she was finding out what our names mean according to Numerology. It was quite interesting when we saw the results. Each of our "numbers" fit us almost exactly. I thought I'd put mine on here because it was kind of fun. Here is the link. Just type in your first middle & last name and read away.
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp
Your number is: 6
The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.
The expression or destiny for #6:
The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.
The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.
If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much.
Your Soul Urge number is: 2
A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.
In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.
If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.
Your Inner Dream number is: 4
An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Things I love today...
Today I love this $50 bag that I got for $26.
My new hair color & cut.
And Ravioli from Costco. Yum!
My new hair color & cut.
And Ravioli from Costco. Yum!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
I need a good rant...
So here it is. I'm getting all fired up tonight and nobody wants to hear it so here you go internets. My rant!
Rant Part 1
So, I go to Redbox every couple of weeks, usually when a new movie comes out that I really want to see. Every now and then I'll go just to see what is being offered since it's always kind of hit or miss but never EVER do I take more then a minute at a red box machine unless I'm waiting for my DVD to be vended. It blows my mind that people will go to a red box, have 5 (10, 15, 20...who knows in Provo) people standing behind them, and proceed to read the description of every movie in the Red Box. Seriously!? Seriously. Here's the deal people, I don't know what rock you have been living under but if you haven't heard of The Chronicles of Narnia, X-Men, 27 Dresses or any other insanely popular movie from the last three years then you shouldn't be at a Red Box in the first place. Do some research before you go to your local McDonald's/Smiths/Maverik/Macey's. For those of you that don't live under a rock but are reading the description of a movie such as Bob The Builder "On Site, Morgue or Frank A Family's Best Friend...you're going to get what you deserve. If you haven't heard of the movie I'm pretty sure there is a reason for it. I'm also pretty sure you're not going to find the latest unknown but incredibly amazing documentary in a Red Box, so give it up. Stick to what you know or research the movie before you come. Don't make the person standing behind you wait 15 minutes when all they want to do is return a movie, or pick up a movie that they reserved online (at redbox.com...yeah that's right you can do all of that perusing before you leave the comfort of your very own home.) Rant Part 1 over.
Rant Part 2
One may look at the above photos and think "what the heck is this dump that Beth is posting photos of?" Well my friends, this dump is my new home. My new home that I love but that I am about to go insane over. I have been with Aspen Ridge Management for 3 years and have rarely gone to them with a complaint. They consider me one of their more easy going tenants and I have always defended them when others would be annoyed with things that they did (or did not) do.
My honeymoon period with Aspen Ridge Management is over. Starting tomorrow we are taking them to University housing because we can't take it anymore. It has been exactly a week that we haven't had electricity in half of our living room. Leaving us with one outlet. The overhead light doesn't work so we have a small lamp "lighting" our Living Room. The TV is plugged into that same plug which just so happens to be right in the path of the front door. As you saw above the plugs were hanging out of the wall when those photos were taken. When I got home yesterday they were put back into the wall and I was so excited! They finally fixed it! We have electricity...just kidding, my roommate had them put the outlets back into the wall for our safety. (gotta love that she had to suggest that because it was a bit too difficult for them to figure out on their own?) Annoyance. My roommates weren't home so I called Aspen Ridge Management to ask them what was going on with our electricity and to find out if there was an estimated time that it would be fixed. Miracle of miracles the girl at the front desk answered, but when I was transferred to the Maintenance desk I got the voice mail. Big shock. This situation is a bit harder for me then for my roommates because a friend of mine from an old ward is the manager over Maintenance. Her sister is the owner of ARM and so I've always tried to be respectful and keep that friendship in mind when I called with complaints. I always hoped for that same respect back but after calling yesterday and asking about the electricity I never received a call back. Our electricity is still not working and after talking to my roommate yesterday I found out that they need to send an electrician out to fix it. WHAT IS THE HOLD UP?! Rachel & I stopped by our old house tonight to check and see if we've gotten any mail and every time I walk in there I get a little bit more frustrated with my current living situation. I loved living in that house and even enjoyed the little quirks and junky things that were included in the house. I loved the old worn out couch, I don't need nice things. But each time I walk into that house I see something new. First freshly painted walls, next a new TV cabinet, next new couches & living room furniture, last new dining room furniture. Tonight when we walked in there was no new furniture but there was a loud noise coming from the bathroom. When we asked what it was they said it was Rotor Rooter cleaning out the drains. So...lets rewind for a moment, I'm living in an apartment with practically no electricity in the Living Room and they're "working on" getting an electrician out to the apartment while the people that live in my old house are having their drains cleaned at 10pm because they have to stand in a puddle of water when they shower? Sad for them, I feel their pain but really!? I've seen those "Need an Electrician? 1 Hour Service" trucks all over town, I know that someone could come in and fix it within the hour SO WHY AREN'T THEY? I'm done being the good tenant. I'm done being laid back. I'm done putting in my time with crappy housing. Give me dining room chairs that I can sit on! Give me a dining room table that the leg doesn't fall off of! Give me a fan cover in the bathroom! Paint the walls so the splash of white around the super ghetto swamp cooler doesn't stand out and make the whole place look like the dump it is! Give me electricity in my living room!!!! I'm not asking that much, I know that I am paying less then most people in this town are for a private room but I think that the few things I am asking for are perfectly reasonable.
I'm so frustrated because I have a feeling that no matter how much I complain none of this will be fixed. The electricity will be but the rest will not be and that's what I get for trying to live in a place that is actually fairly priced in this town of overpriced housing.
Rant Part 2 Over.
Rant Part 1
So, I go to Redbox every couple of weeks, usually when a new movie comes out that I really want to see. Every now and then I'll go just to see what is being offered since it's always kind of hit or miss but never EVER do I take more then a minute at a red box machine unless I'm waiting for my DVD to be vended. It blows my mind that people will go to a red box, have 5 (10, 15, 20...who knows in Provo) people standing behind them, and proceed to read the description of every movie in the Red Box. Seriously!? Seriously. Here's the deal people, I don't know what rock you have been living under but if you haven't heard of The Chronicles of Narnia, X-Men, 27 Dresses or any other insanely popular movie from the last three years then you shouldn't be at a Red Box in the first place. Do some research before you go to your local McDonald's/Smiths/Maverik/Macey's. For those of you that don't live under a rock but are reading the description of a movie such as Bob The Builder "On Site, Morgue or Frank A Family's Best Friend...you're going to get what you deserve. If you haven't heard of the movie I'm pretty sure there is a reason for it. I'm also pretty sure you're not going to find the latest unknown but incredibly amazing documentary in a Red Box, so give it up. Stick to what you know or research the movie before you come. Don't make the person standing behind you wait 15 minutes when all they want to do is return a movie, or pick up a movie that they reserved online (at redbox.com...yeah that's right you can do all of that perusing before you leave the comfort of your very own home.) Rant Part 1 over.
Rant Part 2
One may look at the above photos and think "what the heck is this dump that Beth is posting photos of?" Well my friends, this dump is my new home. My new home that I love but that I am about to go insane over. I have been with Aspen Ridge Management for 3 years and have rarely gone to them with a complaint. They consider me one of their more easy going tenants and I have always defended them when others would be annoyed with things that they did (or did not) do.
My honeymoon period with Aspen Ridge Management is over. Starting tomorrow we are taking them to University housing because we can't take it anymore. It has been exactly a week that we haven't had electricity in half of our living room. Leaving us with one outlet. The overhead light doesn't work so we have a small lamp "lighting" our Living Room. The TV is plugged into that same plug which just so happens to be right in the path of the front door. As you saw above the plugs were hanging out of the wall when those photos were taken. When I got home yesterday they were put back into the wall and I was so excited! They finally fixed it! We have electricity...just kidding, my roommate had them put the outlets back into the wall for our safety. (gotta love that she had to suggest that because it was a bit too difficult for them to figure out on their own?) Annoyance. My roommates weren't home so I called Aspen Ridge Management to ask them what was going on with our electricity and to find out if there was an estimated time that it would be fixed. Miracle of miracles the girl at the front desk answered, but when I was transferred to the Maintenance desk I got the voice mail. Big shock. This situation is a bit harder for me then for my roommates because a friend of mine from an old ward is the manager over Maintenance. Her sister is the owner of ARM and so I've always tried to be respectful and keep that friendship in mind when I called with complaints. I always hoped for that same respect back but after calling yesterday and asking about the electricity I never received a call back. Our electricity is still not working and after talking to my roommate yesterday I found out that they need to send an electrician out to fix it. WHAT IS THE HOLD UP?! Rachel & I stopped by our old house tonight to check and see if we've gotten any mail and every time I walk in there I get a little bit more frustrated with my current living situation. I loved living in that house and even enjoyed the little quirks and junky things that were included in the house. I loved the old worn out couch, I don't need nice things. But each time I walk into that house I see something new. First freshly painted walls, next a new TV cabinet, next new couches & living room furniture, last new dining room furniture. Tonight when we walked in there was no new furniture but there was a loud noise coming from the bathroom. When we asked what it was they said it was Rotor Rooter cleaning out the drains. So...lets rewind for a moment, I'm living in an apartment with practically no electricity in the Living Room and they're "working on" getting an electrician out to the apartment while the people that live in my old house are having their drains cleaned at 10pm because they have to stand in a puddle of water when they shower? Sad for them, I feel their pain but really!? I've seen those "Need an Electrician? 1 Hour Service" trucks all over town, I know that someone could come in and fix it within the hour SO WHY AREN'T THEY? I'm done being the good tenant. I'm done being laid back. I'm done putting in my time with crappy housing. Give me dining room chairs that I can sit on! Give me a dining room table that the leg doesn't fall off of! Give me a fan cover in the bathroom! Paint the walls so the splash of white around the super ghetto swamp cooler doesn't stand out and make the whole place look like the dump it is! Give me electricity in my living room!!!! I'm not asking that much, I know that I am paying less then most people in this town are for a private room but I think that the few things I am asking for are perfectly reasonable.
I'm so frustrated because I have a feeling that no matter how much I complain none of this will be fixed. The electricity will be but the rest will not be and that's what I get for trying to live in a place that is actually fairly priced in this town of overpriced housing.
Rant Part 2 Over.
Friday, September 12, 2008
A weekend of favorites...
Last weekend was filled with a lot of my favorite people and a lot of photo ops. Which together makes one big favorite thing! Friday night was a fun adventure in the big city. We went to dinner and ate delicious Chinese Food (that was so spicy my lips burned for about an hour) and then wandering around a park (and a dark road looking for a park). It was wonderful and everyone was so patient with my need to photograph my friends. Here are a few of them.
I spent Saturday morning with Sarah, Jerr & Austin. It was family picture/12 month picture day. I had a great time photographing my favorite little family especially my favorite little boy. The kiddo is going to be 1 tomorrow and I just can't believe it. He has grown up so much, he has such a fun personality, he's very loving in his own ways...the cuddles are rare but they sure are sweet when they happen. I love making him giggle, chasing after him and having him stop and put his arms up because he's so excited that I followed him. I love when I hold him and he doesn't want to go to anyone else. I am blessed to have such a darling little nephew. Happy Birthday my little Austin! You have fully succeeded in becoming the joy of your Auntie's life.
Here is a slideshow of the majority of the pictures!
In search of a park in Salt Lake. We were a bit lost.
Classic
Favorites!
Hilarious
I spent Saturday morning with Sarah, Jerr & Austin. It was family picture/12 month picture day. I had a great time photographing my favorite little family especially my favorite little boy. The kiddo is going to be 1 tomorrow and I just can't believe it. He has grown up so much, he has such a fun personality, he's very loving in his own ways...the cuddles are rare but they sure are sweet when they happen. I love making him giggle, chasing after him and having him stop and put his arms up because he's so excited that I followed him. I love when I hold him and he doesn't want to go to anyone else. I am blessed to have such a darling little nephew. Happy Birthday my little Austin! You have fully succeeded in becoming the joy of your Auntie's life.
Here is a slideshow of the majority of the pictures!
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Saturday, September 06, 2008
The long awaited photos...at least some of them.
Well, here they are! The pictures of my new room all decorated and feelin' like home. The apartment photos are coming soon!
The view from my bedroom door. I went for red & white with black accents for my color scheme...it's my dream bedroom finally! (I got those curtains on the window for $4.50 and the curtain rod, which I'm in love with, for $6...screamin' deals all around!)
Notice the tall frame on my bookshelf. It was once a light wood color (Joanie gave it to me when I moved to Utah and I love it) I couldn't even think of getting rid of it so I painted it black all except for a little section on the back where Joanie's note is.
Amazing curtains that I got at Ikea for $4. Also on the left wall a few of my favorite Boston photos.
Ah, the best part about my room! My bed...so soft and so pretty! I make my bed everyday, that's how much I love it.
And just one more of my shelf because I have to show that after 3 years of having those collage's sitting in closets they have a home! Tom, Nate & I made them together and no one ever took them and I couldn't bare to get rid of them. I didn't plan to leave them there but I really love the way they look so they finally have a home!
Notice the tall frame on my bookshelf. It was once a light wood color (Joanie gave it to me when I moved to Utah and I love it) I couldn't even think of getting rid of it so I painted it black all except for a little section on the back where Joanie's note is.
Amazing curtains that I got at Ikea for $4. Also on the left wall a few of my favorite Boston photos.
Ah, the best part about my room! My bed...so soft and so pretty! I make my bed everyday, that's how much I love it.
And just one more of my shelf because I have to show that after 3 years of having those collage's sitting in closets they have a home! Tom, Nate & I made them together and no one ever took them and I couldn't bare to get rid of them. I didn't plan to leave them there but I really love the way they look so they finally have a home!
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Thinking of home...
I have lived in Utah for 7 years. Can you believe it? Yeah, me neither. I realized today that besides the first 4 months of my time in Utah and then other random weeks and months throughout those 7 years I haven't really felt homesick. I miss my family and my home but it hasn't been an overwhelming feeling for more then a day or two here and there. Today was a good day for me. A great day in fact. I don't talk about work on my blog and I'm not planning to start, but I just have to say that some things that I have worked very hard for and have wanted very much over the last 3 1/2 years came about today. Not fully, but the beginnings of it and I am thrilled. My first break was spent on the phone with my mom because I couldn't wait to tell her. Later I talked to my sister and told her the good news and after work called my Aunt to tell her. I couldn't WAIT to tell my family about this achievement. I told a few friends as well and they were supportive and excited with me but I have to say that it's the days like this one that I miss home the most. My family can celebrate, let me tell you. Birthday's are a huge deal. Accomplishments are always celebrated and relatives are called. I had a taste of that today as I talked to my family members and they were so happy for me and then received a call from Sassy saying "Gran said I should call you". And all the while I just kept thinking that I wished they were here or I was there. Sassy told me to celebrate tonight. Many of you will probably think "Celebrate the discussion of something that probably, might, could, maybe, possibly happen?" Yes, celebrate. That's what we do. I don't think there will be any celebrating going on tonight besides a movie with my roommates, but it fills me with joy to know that my family is celebrating with me. I know they are proud of me and that they are excited to see me receive the recognition I deserve after years of hard work. I have the greatest family in the world. We have our quirks, our weaknesses, our arguments but we love each other a whole lot. I can't wait for December and spending Christmas at home with my wonderful family. There it is, the long awaited ode to my family. The people that matter the most to me and that receive the least recognition. 
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